Criss-cross crises...

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I can smell the gorse

That coconut scent 

Know that milder days

Rainbows, rain showers, late nights

Skirts and shades are on the way.

I stare out this travelling window.

Where am I going?

Who knows?

Feeling lately

Boxed in.

Standing still and stagnant.

Waiting - in line forever.

That sense that you're 'behind' everyone in

This game we call Life...

Now I know

For sure the time to GO

is now...just around the corner.

To start a new journey.

Elsewhere - it's up to me.

Lack of anything can't be blamed on this society alone.

I lack passion right now for the 

Box I'm in.

Those mundane tasks I can achieve but achieve

Nothing for ME.

Time to be kinder to myself

Let the voice of resentment fade away

That echo that says you're not enough to Dream this big 

Or want this life for yourself.

No - everything is possible.

I need to keep the faith

That all those crazy ideas that I've locked 

In my mind...

Are viable dreams that I can 

Bring to Life.

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'Wherever you take me, I'll go...' 

Laura Mvula - Green Garden

Have a great (almost) weekend,

A*

My head, my head...

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It's always an apology with me

I'm starting from a step behind

Always seem to wait

To look for the signs

The green light to GO

On the back foot

Starting

Over & over & over

However

For now, today - let's say

I'm back

I'm alive

I'm coping

My head is starting to calm

A little...

So...apologies for being away

I've need the time

The space & the opportunity to

Re-set myself, my expectations.

My capabilities & interests.

I'm sipping Earl Grey Tea

I've had an ache in my head

Now it's disappated

I feel that my thoughts are

clearing...

Here's some Daughter & Elbow for this unforgiving Baltic Monday night here in Dublin!

A*

Daughter's recent BBC Live Lounge mash up of Bon Iver's 'Perth' & Hot Chip's 'Ready for the Floor' - I can't get enough...

Elbow's beautiful 'Lippy Kids' live from Later with Jools Holland.

Eye off the ball...

...as I'm watching the clock!
What does that even mean? No idea - anyway!

Here's a positive start to this Autumnal phase of 2012...

I'll keep things short.

Achievements that I can recount so far this September:

• Got my Master in Theatre results - woop not too shabby and will be graduating at the end of October :) ah phew...now I'm B.A. M.A. !!!
• Reconnected with my older sister (which is good as we hadn't been really speaking for months...way too long a story)
• Got myself an internship with BLOCK T in Smithfield. Fun, engaging, bit mad but you know I'm enjoying working with all these lovely creative people...
• Meeting up with my friends a bit more lately...managed a wee Pub Crawl recently to god forbid 'NEW' places - this is a major achievement for my friends!
• I bagged myself a spot as a Dublin Theatre Festival volunteer - can't wait. So many good shows to see
• Weather over all this September has been pretty ok :)
• Have been seeing more of my relatives of late...
• Leading to - a trip to Sligo last weekend to visit my Nana who isn't the ''mae west'' at the moment in hospital...
• 7 Digital - oh how I've missed having some spare mula to spend on New Gorgeous Music from your site
• Ben Howard - his album 'Every Kingdom' and pretty much every other song I can find is fantastic. Good to soothe the soul at the moment
• I'm going to enrol in a play writing course for the end of October - exciting
• Third Space & Cinnamon Cafe - new places to enjoy tasty food & good coffee
• Leading to my love affair with Urbun in Cabinteely - seriously if I lived any closer I'd be give a plaque and a regular table - Love their Badger & Dodo coffee and all their food is amazing
• Trips to visit my friend in Powerscourt - just to get out into the country air for head space, Avoca food and a good catch up...
• Knowing that everything passes - like silly anger and tiffs over stupid shite...life in general (very general) is good...

Ok so I've so much more to write, update, ramble on about but I've gotta head to bed.

Here's a nice positive video 'Keep your head up' by Ben Howard. Coz at the moment everything seems a bit strange, off kilter and I need to keep positive & sane :)

First video is the official version, below you'll find the hilarious and amazing out takes version.

Enjoy,

A* 

What do I know?

I know that I've come along way...
Looking back
Around this time, 12 months ago
I decided
To go back to what I know
The world & work of creating art
To quit my job
To tumble head first
Into a void of uncertainty
Into college life again
To study
To absorb
To think 
To have time which is such a luxury


There's been a shift not just in my mind
In my body
How I move
Stretch, run, skip, jump
I dance
More and more than I ever remembered


I like to walk
Maybe it's the curiosity of spirit
Maybe I've grown to love rambling
But I now I walk as far as I can
Take trails I know
Onto rocky patches overlooking vistas
Down paths by a canal
Up a hill back to home
Down the wet path to the park
Wherever my feet take me

If I slip and fall
I keep going
Determination
'discipline' of mind over matter
No matter, now
I know
I've come so very far
I should be proud
Of all the work I've accomplished this year


Rehabilitating myself back to health
Keeping in touch with friends far away
Making sure that I see those close by
Not let things slide
Re-starting every time I fall down


So...
I ask the universe 
What's the next step?


Almost too many options
At the core is this
Happiness
In all its facets
I'd like to be independent 
Happy
Doing my own thing
Answering to my Conscience 
Accountable for my life


Have a good week,


A*

TIME

TIME
To say 
That I have 
NO
time
For the things 
I'd like to be doing
However
Those OTHER
Things are just
DISTRACTIONS


SomeTIMES
I feel like
A Fraud
Wandering the City


I shouldn't
Be Allowed
To SMILE
so much
At so many mundane things
There must be someTHING
Wrong?


Can YOU see
That I feel
Every moment with this
Intensity
That's not
REAL for anyone else
It's for me Alone.


I like it here
In my Bubble
Ears plugged 
I can only hear 
My soundtrack
The notes & voices float
My feet
Do they touch the 
Ground?


The merry go round
Thoughts swim
Is anything that I dream
Real at all?
Five years ago 
I had no idea that I could be
CONTENT again.


No one has a plan 
So perfect that they
Do not
Fail
Suffer
Doubt


I'd rather make it up as I go along.
It's fun to be a child again.
Never lose that excitement,
That innocence in the simple things.
I will try and not let myself down.
Try harder to be the best I can.
That what I create matters.

Music of the Moment: Daughter taken from 'The Wild Youth' EP

Hauntingly beautiful...

Take care,

A*

3000 views...what the ?

Hi there internet Ladies & Gents,

It has come to my tardy attention that this blog has now surpassed 3000 views...what the ? 

Thank you - is in order for you the readers :D

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I don't know many of you - and perhaps I'll hear from you when you want to comment...or perhaps you like to stop by anonymously. 

I write here because I like it but don't really feel the need to cater to anyone in particular as this blog was always going to be a mix of my rambling thoughts.

If you've ever come here to read something / look at the photos / videos - then thank you for your kind attention.

Dublin Bay at Dusk as seen from Dún Laoghaire Pier
24th May 2012.

With my Masters coming into the final phase - I've not had very much time to dedicate to this blog as the other one : http://littlestartheatre.blogspot.com is taking up my time.

So if you're inclined to look there also for the next few months that's where I will be posting more regularly.

Hope that you're having a very pleasant weekend.

Here's a song that to me sounds like summer, bare feet, beer and BBQ

Take it away JD...

A*

For my sins...

Hi there - lovely blog readers...


For my sins I've started another blog! 


See here http://littlestartheatre.blogspot.com/


The aim is to try and document the process of being a Theatre Maker/ Director with the material, inspiration, stories from my current work in progress for my M.A.


It's going to be an adventure to say the least...at the moment my feeling is that I may have bitten off more than I can chew - but that's the beauty of being a student...it's good to take risks and learn from failure. I'm being realistic here not pessimistic in case you thought I was already poo pooing all over my ideas!


Anyway I'll post something up soon so you'll have a better idea of what I'm hoping to achieve with this project.


Any thoughts or comments always welcome.


A*

Pin Pin addiction!

Pinterest...who knew - that you could become so wonderfully addictive!

That's me -  http://pinterest.com/amylittlestar/ if you care for a look!

Happy Tuesday :)

A*